Monday, April 1, 2019

The Hard Edit of Life


In Improv, for me, one of the hardest things to master is the edit. Simply put, editing is where you ‘wipe’ the scene and start something new. Think back to every time, Michael Palin, John Cleese, Terry Gilliam or Eric Idle (Monty Python) gleefully shouted, “And now for something completely different” and you have the general idea of an edit.

There are ‘tag edits’, meaning you tap someone on the shoulder and take their place in the scene and in so doing, bring a fresh approach or idea to that scene and then there is the so-called, ‘hard edit’ where you walk across the stage, ending all scenes and wiping everyone from the stage. It’s the equivalent of bringing down the curtain in dramatic theatre. There is generally very little or no curtain in improv and it makes sense, a curtain would just get in the way of all that scene building.

One of my instructors, wisely said recently that in life, just like improv “mastering it means knowing when to edit”. And just like in improv, where the real beauty of it, is its impermanence, so life can be also.

I think the most difficult thing for me personally is that I have always lived my life so safely. There have been many times where I’ve almost quit on Improv, because it was forcing me to change so frequently and disquietingly. I’m a much more conventional type of person than many of my scene partners and often I wonder if I ‘stick out too much’. ‘Am I suited for this?’ is a question that I often ponder when standing outside of myself and observing the other me in class and shows.

Being Gen X is often problematic as well, so many of my classmates and scene partners are so much younger than I, with Millennials often the elder-statesmen where it used to be my fellow Gen X’ers. One time, we were called to do an exercise where we pretended to take  objects out of an imaginary gym bag, making statements about them and pantomiming their use, acting on whatever impulse you had, but all of the objects had to follow a ‘trend’ and then you were to ‘hand them’ to your scene partner who in turn would respond as to how he or she felt about these objects. I found myself pulling out a Slinky, an old Duran Duran tape, a beat up old Cabbage Patch kid, and other assorted Gen X paraphernalia out of the bag, thoroughly enjoying myself and eagerly acting out all my nostalgia and enthusiasm for these missed objects. When the scene finished and the instructor came around to ask the question every improviser hears 1,000 times by the end of their first year, “how did that feel?” my scene partner said, “I dunno, she was pulling out all of these old 80’s toys and stuff!” And bam! once again it hits me over the head, we are a generation apart, while he might know of the objects, he doesn’t really get how I felt about them, because he probably never played with any of them. It was the same in an earlier class where I attempted to explain the concept of sticker albums and trading of the same, to nothing but blank looks and a couple of people who just looked up for a second before diving back into the conversation they were having with a colleague on social media on their I-phone.

An even stickier situation is when you are Gen X and single and find yourself, unsettlingly attracted to someone who could also potentially be your son, or was too young to remember Challenger.

That’s when the editing comes in again, what am I doing in this life? Do I belong in this group? What could I do differently to change my situation? Should I move? 

Most of the time however, inertia takes over and you allow yourself the luxury of doing nothing…which any improviser worth their salt knows is the best way to ruin a scene.

So do I succumb to inertia or do I hard edit my life…

Stay tuned.

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